I am.

By not speaking
I spoke too much
by not smiling
I laughed
By not seeing
I grasped it all
By not listening
I followed

By not seeking
I found
By not waiting
I remained
By not sleeping
I slept
By not dreaming
I dreamt

By not wanting
I longed
By not crying
I wept
By not fighting
I fought
By not losing
I lost

By not moving
I reached
By not thinking
I thought
By not feeling
I felt
By not being
I am.