Yesterday.

I loved you.
And you me.
Everything else perfect
So it seemed to be

But now
It's in the past
I've lost my way
I don't know how.

It was
A beautiful memory
It chose to tell
Another one's story.

So why
Does it hurt today
While one moved on
The other did stay.

And dream
About you
Like yesterday
Meant nothing anyway.

A dreamer.

A dreamer who lived
Who loved
Every single dream
Of his realm
Smaller ones built
On banks of green
Bigger ones flowing
Covering all that seem
He lived there
In those castles he created
In those imaginary caves
And non existent happiness.
When everyone was happy
And nothing but happy.

Then came a dark day
And he did see it coming
He saw the cracks
Running across his dream
And slowly it did happen
Till that one day
When he last saw hope
A flower untouched.
For it was the first
And now the last
To be consumed...
It died
So did he.

Amid that dead dream
Lay a flower
In whose name
Once lived a lover...

B and double you.

Fade in,
B and double you,
The warm sunlit place,
that'd be the setting,
the butterfly earrings,
and those benches in shade.
The beautiful time that we longed,
would be the time that i'd remember.
Then we hoped for togetherness,
as now we still do,
all tucked away in this memory room.
With no windows to wake up to dawn.
Or doors to leave,
This is mine, and you cannot take it away.
I wished you did,
and I wished I'd let you.
But for all the times we spent,
together,
wondering what to do,
or planning the next trip to paradise,
I'd miss this,
the sun upon your face,
with me,
and the hope,
of a beautiful future,
etched on that bench,
sitting idle, no more.

The last time

Now when I think of it, You were prepared for this all along.

And I was the one, who believed he was prepared to live it through.

You knew it, deep down you really did.

That this was just a stupid dream, which we tried too hard not to wake up from.

We lay down with our eyes closed, trying to remember where we'd left off.

So we can start again, and walk together. 

We tried, we really did.

And I thank you, not today. Or tomorrow. 

But will someday, in the near not-so-ours-together future.

Where you would be happy with the things you can control.

And I, I would still be around. 

So Let me write you this, this poem without verse.

Or structure, Or love that once made it worse.

Let me rhyme, this one time, 

For what we had was a beautiful hymn.

Why do I love you?

I loved you when I asked you out.
I loved you when I wasn't sure why I asked you out.
I loved you on the day I first kissed you.
I loved you on the hundreds of nights we spent talking, making plans for you.
I loved you when you spoke.
I loved you when you listened.
I loved you when you were happy.
I loved you when you laughed.
I loved you when you teared up.
I loved you when you were angry at the world.
I loved you when you were working your way up.
I loved you when we were stuck in the rain.
I loved you when you drove me around.
I loved you when sat behind me on my bike.
I loved you on the night I was afraid to go sleep.
I loved you when you would not sleep for me.
I loved you when your nose went all pink.
I loved you when you dint care what people think.
I loved you when you spoke to me on your way back home.
I loved you when you feared me coming home.
I loved you when you were waiting for me alone.
I loved you when you would give me that stupid smile.
I loved you when we took long walks
I loved you when we had small talks.
I loved you when I was afraid to let you ride.
I loved you when you wouldn't let me drive.
I loved you when you watched me play.
I loved you when we met everyday.
I loved you when I came home to you.
I loved you when you came to wish me.
I loved you when you surprised me.
I loved you when there were no secrets.
I loved you when you cried that day.
I loved you when you tried to be brave.
I loved you when we'd pray for the other.
I loved you when we watch a movie, and another.
I loved you when you ate your pasta.
I loved you when Id eat half your lunch.
I loved you when we spent time on that bench.
I loved you when you'd save all the tickets.
I loved you when we'd meet at the lobby.
I loved you when we ate butter maggi.
I loved you when you were really high.
I loved you when we'd look at the sky.
I loved you when you understood my concerns.
I loved you when you cared for my problems.
I loved you when you did my homework.
I loved you when you asked me to work.
I loved you when you fought with me.
I loved you when you missed me.
I loved you when Id call from my native.
I loved you when we you'd stay up to hear my voice.
I loved you when I did not show up.
I loved you when I did eventually turn up.
I loved you when you told me you got through.
I loved you the day you told me you are leaving.
I loved you when I heard your flight timing.
I loved you when I came to see you boarding.
I loved you when you introduced me to your parents.
I loved you when you look anxious about it.
I loved you when gave me that last kiss.
I loved you when you turned and walked away.
I loved you when you went to another place.
I loved you when you had no time to waste.
I loved you when you got your first job.
I loved you when you asked me to send letters.
I loved you when you'd find time for me.
I loved you when you went shopping for me.
I loved you when I saw you in my jacket.
I loved you when you sent me another.
I loved you when you came back home, after a year.
I loved you when you said I was dear.
I loved you when you seemed still the same.
I loved you when you changed for your aim.
I loved you the day we decided to part.
I loved you the days I asked to be a part.
I loved you the day I had nobody, not one.
And I'll love even if I'm not your one. 

A better Lie.

I had her, Life.
last night, or was it this morning.
That I last sensed her touch,
felt her warmth, her softness,
Her arousing scent,
her enticing words.
She swayed with me, for me,
provoking my senses.
Deepening my scars,
I had long buried.
And then she left,
said not a word.
Hurt not a little,
mourn not a lot.

Hide behind insecurities,
wallow in self-pity.
Screaming at them, those bastards!
Dreaming with them, A better lie.

The First sliver

Did you really promise eternal love?
Or was it a farce in the name of it?
Do you remember the promises,
and the thousand times we forever-ed.
Or did you forget them as well,
as you wished the Ninety-fifth day.

But People change, their hearts falter,
promises break, and buried along.
So when you walk down,
and look back to it again.
Little broken statues and large empty castles remain,
memory blocks of my craving soul.
As empty as their life,
and as hollow your love.

If only we lived as we'd dreamt,
if only I was I and you, You!

Lily's dream

I sense the sorrow
In your broken smile
a little less yesterday
A little more tomorrow

The longing of a soul
In the beautiful Brown eyes
a little less yesterday
A little more tomorrow

Your belief in destiny
Together and many
a little less yesterday
A little more tomorrow

Auburn hair flowing
Autumn around the corner
a little less yesterday
A little more tomorrow

I shall sleep tonight
Hoping to dream
a little less yesterday
A little more tomorrow

Crimson

The distance creeps up on me
on low shadowy nights
the heavy winds blow
heavy as my heart at dawn

i long for the moonless nights
i wait for your slightest move
All your beautiful memories
is all i hold on to

i try to curb the urge
but your thoughts re-surge
your eroticism entices
this weakened heart

i hold strong for
the storm rages on
i will fight
for the battle shall be won.

Again

How do I capture any moment in a day? Record it as it happened.  Associate feelings along with it so that we can experience the same feeling over and over at our convenience. One of the many things I'm looking forward to in this life.Ever felt like re-living the past?
We all have had that moment of madness at which point we're ready to give up anything for another glimpse of what had been. I'm not talking about memories or photographs. Or a reading a note describing all the events accurately.
Imagine a situation where you can,  maybe press a button, and relive an entire episode of the past. Experience the same feelings and emotions all over again. Happiness, sorrow, anticipation, hope and the million other emotions that can't be described in words. The power to go through it all again.

Hold your hand once more,
Hold you tight being apart,
Speak through our eyes,
And walk through our lives.

Remember all the mindless conversations,
Enact the scripted play,
Go over a thousands suns,
And still wait for another one.

Go back to the places
And hold on to the little things
Run through the deserted streets
Of cities we built in past.

Feel your breath
Your first touch
In my arms
All over again.

Forever

I, my mortal being
Waited for you
Oh divine thee

Always present
By my Side
Always with
That beautiful smile

Your voice
I longed for
Always did
Still do

Come back sooner
Hold me closer
Can't wait no longer
I'll wait forever

Babyblue

Why do I look at my hand and feel yours'
Touch my heart and feel your heartbeat
Try to speak and hear your voice
Write how I feel and feel how u write
open my eyes and see you here
Close mine and be forever
Your presence is felt
Absent-alive-barely
You followed yours
asking me mine
You're living yours
and that is mine
Love
Life
Dreams
Babyblue

Better man

Why am I so
Unfair to the voice
Hurting inside
Trying to be fair
Living within a shell
Afraid to lose again
Hurting you
With this fear
Pure of heart and Soul
Fear losing it all
Trying to be a better man
Always have forever will
Hope I ain't late
To ask for forgiveness
Hope you do wait
For better tomorrow
Help me girl
I need you now
Fight my battles
Show me how

Rain

In this rain
I so shall be
Waiting for thee
Till I stop being
In this rain
I so shall be
Holding on to you
And so promise too
In this rain
I so shall be
With a broken smile
You will never see
In this rain
I so shall be
Washing away
My infinite sin
In this rain
I so shall be
Hoping to live
With you Lily

You - me

Your eyes
My sight
Your lips
My breath
Your skin
My touch
Your smile
My happiness
Your scent
My high
Your voice
My song
Your innocence
My presence
Your soul
My shadow
Your anger
My chaos
Your dreams
My reality
Your love
My life
Your days
My eternity.

Necessities

What I see
in your big brown eyes
Is the power to be
One with the sun and sea
What I want
Is the radiant sun
That lives within
Your auburn skin
When I see
You passing by
This life to me seems
Like an endless sky
What I want
and what I see
Will have to wait
For the time to be

Princess

You make me want the memories
Take me by the riverside
Hold on to the days you left behind
Walking past the happy times
Laughing at the otherside
Wish I could go back to paradise
I didn't cry the day you left
For I knew that you never did
You would always be here by my side
The places never mattered
Faces hardly remembered
Hours you spent smiling being mine
Tears were of no help
Fate did have other plans
Distance will never keep us part for long
Waiting for the days to come
When I would be in your arms
And time would go back being nice