It is time.

How I have missed you?

Being a part of you.

Feeling things long lost,

tasting a forgotten memory.

Why be elusive?

Why be someone else?

Why care about the world?

Lets burn it all down,

Let take each thing apart,

one by one.

Let us rebuild it all anew. 

Let us recreate, remould. 

Sit up now,

time to wake up. 

You have been drugged for far too long,

The haze is waning,

Numbness fading. 

It is all coming back.

Look up now,

Nobody's here. 

Nobody ever was. 

Or has been. 

Or ever will.

It is just you,

and will always be,

Just you.

Stand up now.

Scream into the void.

Shout it out loud,

and walk away.

For this nothingness will never remember,

will never respond. 

So take what is yours,

burn them old bridges,

and memories,

and hopes.

Let's dream again.

And this time, 

Let us not care. 

Lets go back to the place, 

when you started,

and undo everything. 

Let us rebuild.

Relearn.

Recreate. 

Reclaim. 

It is time. 

Pink

I loved you.
More so unknown than I could ever tell you.
I did tell you.
I know that you knew.
I knew that you did too.

It was supposed to be eternal,
You and I.
Doing what we do,
across time and space.
Being us. Just us.

You were a flawed being.
With your stubbornness and beliefs.
I was too, and still am.
But it was our little world,
and us against everything else.

I picked you over everyone else,
sometimes even myself.
I truly loved you.
You were my first and my last.
You still are.

Every memory I have is shared.
With you.
All our firsts,
and our lasts.

I miss you Pink.
More than ever.

I am sorry,
I should have been there.
I am sorry I couldn't be better.
I am sorry.

Your memories are all I have,
Our times together.
I do not know what this life is without you.
It hurts.
Terribly.

Everyday is a reminder of something we did.
You are always there.
You will always be here with me.
Forever.

You are the only one pink,
and I cannot forgive myself,
I wish we could hang again.
Like we used to.

I wish I could talk to you,
for hours, and speak about nothing.
I wish you could be here,
with me.

Elusive darkness

I come back to you,
like a customer on tab,
in this whorehouse of lust,
with an animalistic urge.
The closer I get to you,
you seem farther away.
lost dreams circling in your eyes,
elusive to my touch.
It draws me to you,
even when I have you,
that I cannot have you,
even on days I've had you.
I crave your soul,
not your body, nothing whole.
I want your broken, scarred skin.
I want you, taken in your sin.
Give in to me, let me have it all,
let me inside that shell,
show me your beautiful hell.
Yet I fear the day,
when you let me prey,
on your elusive darkness,
on my carnal madness.
But do give in to me,
Let me inside that shell,
show me your beautiful hell.

I to you.

Let it be something
Give it no name
Let it mean nothing
While meaning the same

Let it take a day
Have it make it's way
Let it take a week
Let it make us weak

Let it into our lives
Let it control our hives
Let it speak it's tongue
On our bodies so young

Let it want
Give in to it's wants
Let it breathe
Through our skin beneath

Try not to stop
Let it reach atop
Try not to contain
Let it not die in pain

Be weak;
Give in;
Crumble;
Succumb,
To it.
To I.
To You.
To Us.

Sleep tight

You are back.

In a way, Yes.

So feeling any better?

I wouldn't say I am.

How can I help?

You cannot. Don't you see the things that your counsel has already put me through?

I played for you, You played for her. She played for her too.

And you are blaming me?

No, not you. I'm just blaming myself for letting this happen to you.

When you think about it, it was actually your fault!!

Yes, I knew you would come around to blaming me. But, that's alright. 

I listened to you. I played the part. And look at me now!

You risked us both. You were vulnerable out there. And someone took advantage. Welcome to life my friend.

But.. All I did was.. 

Let it go. We need to look ahead. There! Do you see where that light is coming from?

What light? Where?

You don't see it, do you?

No I don't!!

You will not find what you seek till you are stuck here, in this place.

Stuck here? Where exactly are we? And what is this place?

You tell me. We are afterall in Your dream.

If this is my dream as you say, why is all dark and empty?

Well, It wasn't always like this. We used to have colour and happiness. And guess what happened. 

(Chuckles) 

Am I dead already?

Not as much as you would have liked. But I wouldn't say the same about this dream.

Is this what my life has become?

It is what you make of it. You built this place. You see dreams are just a continuation of our reality.

You said 'our' reality.

(smiles) Who do you think I am?

Eh.. 

 

END.

Why do I love you?

I loved you when I asked you out.
I loved you when I wasn't sure why I asked you out.
I loved you on the day I first kissed you.
I loved you on the hundreds of nights we spent talking, making plans for you.
I loved you when you spoke.
I loved you when you listened.
I loved you when you were happy.
I loved you when you laughed.
I loved you when you teared up.
I loved you when you were angry at the world.
I loved you when you were working your way up.
I loved you when we were stuck in the rain.
I loved you when you drove me around.
I loved you when sat behind me on my bike.
I loved you on the night I was afraid to go sleep.
I loved you when you would not sleep for me.
I loved you when your nose went all pink.
I loved you when you dint care what people think.
I loved you when you spoke to me on your way back home.
I loved you when you feared me coming home.
I loved you when you were waiting for me alone.
I loved you when you would give me that stupid smile.
I loved you when we took long walks
I loved you when we had small talks.
I loved you when I was afraid to let you ride.
I loved you when you wouldn't let me drive.
I loved you when you watched me play.
I loved you when we met everyday.
I loved you when I came home to you.
I loved you when you came to wish me.
I loved you when you surprised me.
I loved you when there were no secrets.
I loved you when you cried that day.
I loved you when you tried to be brave.
I loved you when we'd pray for the other.
I loved you when we watch a movie, and another.
I loved you when you ate your pasta.
I loved you when Id eat half your lunch.
I loved you when we spent time on that bench.
I loved you when you'd save all the tickets.
I loved you when we'd meet at the lobby.
I loved you when we ate butter maggi.
I loved you when you were really high.
I loved you when we'd look at the sky.
I loved you when you understood my concerns.
I loved you when you cared for my problems.
I loved you when you did my homework.
I loved you when you asked me to work.
I loved you when you fought with me.
I loved you when you missed me.
I loved you when Id call from my native.
I loved you when we you'd stay up to hear my voice.
I loved you when I did not show up.
I loved you when I did eventually turn up.
I loved you when you told me you got through.
I loved you the day you told me you are leaving.
I loved you when I heard your flight timing.
I loved you when I came to see you boarding.
I loved you when you introduced me to your parents.
I loved you when you look anxious about it.
I loved you when gave me that last kiss.
I loved you when you turned and walked away.
I loved you when you went to another place.
I loved you when you had no time to waste.
I loved you when you got your first job.
I loved you when you asked me to send letters.
I loved you when you'd find time for me.
I loved you when you went shopping for me.
I loved you when I saw you in my jacket.
I loved you when you sent me another.
I loved you when you came back home, after a year.
I loved you when you said I was dear.
I loved you when you seemed still the same.
I loved you when you changed for your aim.
I loved you the day we decided to part.
I loved you the days I asked to be a part.
I loved you the day I had nobody, not one.
And I'll love even if I'm not your one. 

My first Sonnet!!

Powerful solitary structs

countless hereditary days

Single sided ducts

Incomplete one lays

decipher its trying tongue

harder for simpler men

together their lives they've sung

gods numbered one to ten

A future in the Past

longings of the living

a die formerly cast

actuality unforgiving

Awaiting elucidation

Open interpretation.