Elusive darkness

I come back to you,
like a customer on tab,
in this whorehouse of lust,
with an animalistic urge.
The closer I get to you,
you seem farther away.
lost dreams circling in your eyes,
elusive to my touch.
It draws me to you,
even when I have you,
that I cannot have you,
even on days I've had you.
I crave your soul,
not your body, nothing whole.
I want your broken, scarred skin.
I want you, taken in your sin.
Give in to me, let me have it all,
let me inside that shell,
show me your beautiful hell.
Yet I fear the day,
when you let me prey,
on your elusive darkness,
on my carnal madness.
But do give in to me,
Let me inside that shell,
show me your beautiful hell.

Unloved.

The cigarette burning through,
smoke enough to drown dreams,
or dreamy smoke to fuel life.
Sitting watching the emptiness,
trying to feel,
Feelings to try again.
Who are you now?
who are you trying to please now?
Where are you now?
Are you alive? do you even feel?
Where did you lose brother?
How far along have you come?
You stay detached.
Angry at yourself, for being someone.
Feel, fight, pick sides, run, die.
Emote dear love, this is not you.
Let it all be free. Flawed.
Stop trying to hold on.
Let it go, let the world swirl into nothingness.
The madness breathing life.
wake up and be alive.
The numbness will die down,
warmth will flood your inner soul.
Give in to the wants, and want it all.
Worship your devil, and give him life.
for that is the only way. Be unloved.